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Thursday, April 22, 2010

I miss HIM like crazy. HAHAHAHA. :c

The couple that fights the most is the one most in love... it shows they care enough to notice the other one screwed up and care enough to mention it to the person so they can fix it. When you stop fighting it means you stopped caring..

Bwahaahahaha. I just saw that on PPL sa FB. Galing galing talaga. Naalala ko tuloy yung, ah, never mind. :P So eto, nasa bahay pa din ako ni tita. Walangya naman. Bakit hindi niya sinabi na ngaun pla uwi nang kuya kong pinsan! Bka di ako paalisin ni kuya dito. Baka mag-aya pa yun nang gala! NOOO WAAAAAY. Gusto ko na siya makita. Sobrang namiss ko siya. BV nman! Pati yung sa formspring ko ayaw tumigil. Whattamy Gonnaaaa Dooo?? HUHU.

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Lord, aga naman po nang birthday gift ko. :D

Dahahaha. Para na naman akong tanga neto. Mahal pa din daw niya ako. Eto namang si tanga, nagpauto na naman. Putragis. Hahahaha. Ewan, masaya lang. :P

AUGUST 24, 2009

BOY (24/08/2009 20:59:44): ms. maganda?
GIRL (24/08/2009 21:00:26): pano?
BOY (24/08/2009 21:00:35): ndi mo alm?\
GIRL (24/08/2009 21:00:45): ndi un. pnu mu nkuha ym ko?
GIRL (24/08/2009 21:00:49): d ko nman cnb sau eh.
BOY (24/08/2009 21:01:11): pinagreresearchan kea kta..
BOY (24/08/2009 21:01:15): ;)
GIRL (24/08/2009 21:01:22): hehe. kktwa ka namn. xD
BOY (24/08/2009 21:01:35): cryoso..
BOY (24/08/2009 21:01:43): kw kc.. bt ayw mo pa ligawan kta..
GIRL (24/08/2009 21:01:56): e kc nga mai bf ako..
BOY (24/08/2009 21:02:06): pag-wla na kau..
BOY (24/08/2009 21:02:15): pde na?
GIRL (24/08/2009 21:02:45): bt ndi nlng iba ligawan mu?
BOY (24/08/2009 21:02:57): e kw nga gsto ko e..
BOY (24/08/2009 21:02:59): anu magagawa ko..
GIRL (24/08/2009 21:03:22): haha kung mppniwala mu ba ko eh. edi okay.
BOY (24/08/2009 21:03:37): anu gsto mo proof?
BOY (24/08/2009 21:03:39): gagawin ko lahat..
GIRL (24/08/2009 21:03:46): ewan ko sau. hha
BOY (24/08/2009 21:04:20): sbhn mo lng..
BOY (24/08/2009 21:04:24): gagawin ko..
GIRL (24/08/2009 21:04:51): wla nmn ako gs2 eh. xD
BOY (24/08/2009 21:05:07): alis na muna ako.. chat nlang tau ulit..
GIRL (24/08/2009 21:05:13): okay.
GIRL (24/08/2009 21:05:17): ge ingat nlng.
BOY (24/08/2009 21:05:42): hirap kc ng exam nmin bukas e..
BOY (24/08/2009 21:05:42): bye..
BOY (24/08/2009 21:05:44): bsta tandaan mo maghhntay lng ako..

SEPTEMBER 15 : TEE-HEE,

BOY (15/09/2009 16:31:49): jan ka pa?
BOY (15/09/2009 16:31:51):
BOY (15/09/2009 16:48:07): tagal mo na nman mag-ol!!!
BOY (15/09/2009 16:48:07): miss na kta
BOY (15/09/2009 16:48:09): luv u
BOY (15/09/2009 16:59:45): PM mo ko pag-anjan ka na!!
BOY (15/09/2009 16:59:47):
BOY (15/09/2009 18:31:50): uui
BOY (15/09/2009 18:31:54): anjan ka ba??
BOY (15/09/2009 18:31:55):
BOY (15/09/2009 18:31:59): miss na kta
BOY (15/09/2009 19:45:58): gagu ka ha..
BOY (15/09/2009 19:46:05): ndi ka na nag-online
BOY (15/09/2009 19:46:10): bhla ka na nga sa buhay mo!!

SEPTEMBER 20.

BOY (20/09/2009 00:21:29): kya m0 kong iwasan?
GIRL (20/09/2009 00:22:46): cnu ka?
GIRL (20/09/2009 00:22:54): sn m nkuha ym ko??
BOY (20/09/2009 00:23:02): cge na! panalo ka na! kya m0 na
BOY (20/09/2009 00:23:07): luv u
BOY (20/09/2009 00:23:12): vry much!
GIRL (20/09/2009 00:23:13): kaya ang alin?
BOY (20/09/2009 00:23:27): yan k n nman e!
GIRL (20/09/2009 00:23:31): cnu ka nga?!
BOY (20/09/2009 00:23:46): isa!
GIRL (20/09/2009 00:23:57): mrunong ako magbilang. hnggng ilan ba?
BOY (20/09/2009 00:24:16): bhla k nga!
BOY (20/09/2009 00:24:25): geh alis na ko!
GIRL (20/09/2009 00:24:42): mhal n mhal kita
BOY (20/09/2009 00:25:09): bbgay ka din pla..
BOY (20/09/2009 00:25:19): luv u vry much!

SEPTEMBER 20 pa din~ haha

BOY (20/09/2009 19:28:37): bt cla pinapakinggan m0?!
BOY (20/09/2009 19:28:45): sakin ka nga maniwla!
BOY (20/09/2009 19:28:52): mhal na mhal kta!
GIRL (20/09/2009 19:29:08): bt di nlng iba mahalin mo..
BOY (20/09/2009 19:29:36): mhal mo pa rin ba ako?
GIRL (20/09/2009 19:29:44): oo. sobra sobra.
BOY (20/09/2009 19:30:04): o bt ndi mo panindigan?
GIRL (20/09/2009 19:30:14): mhrap nga
BOY (20/09/2009 19:30:47): pwede ba sa akin ka lng maniwla!
BOY (20/09/2009 19:30:51): mhal kta
BOY (20/09/2009 19:30:58): mhal m0 ko
GIRL (20/09/2009 19:31:02): oo wla nmang problema sa mhal na un eh
BOY (20/09/2009 19:31:04): en0ugh na un
GIRL (20/09/2009 19:31:14): may pkelam lng ako sa paligid ko..
BOY (20/09/2009 19:31:58): pde ba ako lng pakialaman m0?
GIRL (20/09/2009 19:32:21): mhl mo ba tlga ako?
GIRL (20/09/2009 19:32:24): ung 22o na kc!
BOY (20/09/2009 19:32:48): mhal na mhal na mhal na mhal kta!!
GIRL (20/09/2009 19:33:29): okei, wla na ko cnb.

SEPTEMBER 21 :)

BOY (21/09/2009 00:00:59): pasalamat ka kht bliw ka kausap mhal na mhal pa din kta
BOY (21/09/2009 00:01:16): :-*
GIRL (21/09/2009 00:01:21): yabang! baliw ka dn nman kausap noh.

BOY (21/09/2009 00:01:55): at least mhal mo nman db?

BOY (21/09/2009 00:02:03): kht bliw
GIRL (21/09/2009 00:02:07): kea nga pinagcha2gaan e..
BOY (21/09/2009 00:02:29): tlga lng ha.. :(

BOY (21/09/2009 00:04:22): mhal na mhal na mhal na mhal na mhal na mhal na mhal na mhal na mhal na mhal kta.!

GIRL (21/09/2009 00:04:33): sna lord 22o yung nbbsa ko.
GIRL (21/09/2009 00:04:35): hahahaha
BOY (21/09/2009 00:04:59): xmpre 22o yan
BOY (21/09/2009 00:05:06): ikw nga jan
GIRL (21/09/2009 00:05:12): anu na nman..
GIRL (21/09/2009 00:05:13): :))
BOY (21/09/2009 00:05:23): ndi mo msbi na mhal mo ko
GIRL (21/09/2009 00:05:28): mhal kaya.. mhal na mhal.. :P

SEPTEMBER 22

BOY (22/09/2009 16:56:24): will u marry me?
GIRL (22/09/2009 16:56:34): ano bang tanong yan
BOY (22/09/2009 16:56:46): yes or n0?!
GIRL (22/09/2009 16:56:56): anu ba mox
BOY (22/09/2009 16:57:10): yes or n0?!
GIRL (22/09/2009 16:57:14): anu yan?
BOY (22/09/2009 16:57:38): marry me or n0t?!
GIRL (22/09/2009 16:58:07): anu na nman nakain mo!?

BOY (22/09/2009 16:58:23): putrages!
BOY (22/09/2009 16:58:30): yes or n0?!
GIRL (22/09/2009 16:58:37): e kc nmn wag ka nga magbiro ng gnian
BOY (22/09/2009 16:58:57): yes or n0?!
GIRL (22/09/2009 16:59:05): che!
BOY (22/09/2009 16:59:23): yes or n0?!
GIRL (22/09/2009 16:59:46): wag mo nga kong lokohin!
BOY (22/09/2009 17:00:02): ndi nga!
BOY (22/09/2009 17:00:10): yes or n0?!
GIRL (22/09/2009 17:00:17): X(
BOY (22/09/2009 17:00:36): yes or n0?!
GIRL (22/09/2009 17:00:41): haha naman. :D

SEPT. 233333

BOY (23/09/2009 17:50:16): kelan ung wedding ntin?
GIRL (23/09/2009 17:50:24): tgal pa un..
BOY (23/09/2009 17:50:38): luv u vry much!
BOY (23/09/2009 17:50:51): miss na miss na kta!

BOY (23/09/2009 18:04:04): na-dc

BOY (23/09/2009 18:08:42): mhal kta!
BOY (23/09/2009 18:08:54): kht ganu pa ksma mukha m0
BOY (23/09/2009 18:08:58): malas ko nga e
BOY (23/09/2009 18:09:04): magtitiis aq

GIRL (23/09/2009 18:04:27): bwaha. swerte ko naman. asus, panget ka dn nman a?
BOY (23/09/2009 18:05:02): haha mis na kta!

*ibang topic*

BOY (23/09/2009 18:13:12): dam0t!
BOY (23/09/2009 18:13:22): bhla k nga!
GIRL (23/09/2009 18:13:31): kaw kc e
BOY (23/09/2009 18:13:34): alis na aq!
BOY (23/09/2009 18:13:39): bye!
GIRL (23/09/2009 18:13:50): okay. buh bye. mhal kita!
BOY (23/09/2009 18:14:01): aba..
BOY (23/09/2009 18:14:07): matapang..
BOY (23/09/2009 18:14:13): mhal na mhal kta!

Monday, April 19, 2010

Jusko po. Patigilin niyo na yung nanloloko sa kin sa formspring. Adik naman eh. Yung mga tanong sakin panay tungkol kay Naga. Badtrip. Lord, sama niyo na din yung Naga na yun. Niloloko na naman ako e. Hahahaha.

Bad Vibes naman eh. Chinochorva kasi ako nun. :)))))))

Panigurado pahihirapan na naman ako nung mokong na yun. Hinayupak naman. Bakit kasi siya pa. PFFT. Eh saktong nasa bahay ako ni tita. Tapos kanina nagpapaview nasa labas ako. Ayaw pang maniwala. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, bad vibes tlga. Haha.

Namimiss ko na siya nang sobrang sobra. Deym. Nakausap ko na pala si boyfie. Ayun, nakipagbreak na. I felt guilty too much. Annnnnddd siya pa din talaga mahal ko. It's weird. For like, 2 months and how many days, I've been trying to move on and forget what happened.. but I do love him still. I need his presence. Para kasing bawat araw na lang na dumadaan na hindi kami okay, lalo ko siya naiisip. Hypnotized na nga. Hahaha.

Grabeh. Tagal ko ding tiniis yung lalakeng yun, ampota. Ewan ko kung mahal niya din ako, or watever. Pero there's still something that tells me to hold on.. pero hindi ko maintindihan. Di ko malaman kung ano yun. For that two months, gustong gusto ko na siyang alisin sa buhay ko. Pero di pala ganun kadali yun. Haha, pano naman kasi. Every time na wala akong magawa view lang sa prof nia. Kasalanan ng Facebook to eh. Wala silang Who's Viewed Me kaya namimihasa tuloy ako. HAHA.

Nanuod ako nang Paano na Kaya (movie syempre).
"Ba't kasi hindi na lang tayo? Bogs, tayo na lang. Akin ka na lang." was my favorite line. HAHA NYORKS. Biro lang. ;D

Siguro pag3rd year na ako, at naka-graduate na yun.. aalis na lang siguro ako nang Riyadh. His one of the reasons why I still stay here in Riyadh. Honestly, matagal tagal ko na din kasing hindi nakikita mga pinsan ko dun. Sama mo na din first crush ko. HAHAHA. Nasa Australia sila ngayon pero gahd, sana kunin na lang ako nila Tita. Nyaha. Pero wag muna dito pa kaya sila. =))

Waaaaahh. Nakakapraning na talaga sa bahay. Good thing may internet sa bahay ni tita. Pero puro naman pangaasar yung laman nang formspring ko. Ang gagi naman eh. Mamatay na kung sino yun. >:)

Next week eh uuwi na yung asungot sa Pinas, at panigurado maraming makaka-date yung panget na yun. Ewan ko ba dun. Charisma nung taong yun. Sana palagi siya magol dun. Mamimiss din kaya ako nun? MALAMANG HINDI.

Eh mahal ka ba nun? Bangag talaga. Haha.

Ni hindi ka nga maiisip nung tao na yun e. Syempre sobrang busy niya dun at.. DATESSSSS. Sabi niya sakin nuon, mas gusto niya daw dito sa Riyadh kasi stable. Yung walang distruction. Gusto niya pagmay mga anak na siya pati asawa dito sila sa Riyadh. Mabait naman talaga yun. Sira lang ung tuktok. BWAHA.

Siya kasi yung lalake na, collect and collect then select. Malamang, gagu yun eh. Haha. Pero ganun pa man.. e mahal na mahal ko yun.

Hanggang kelaaaaaaaan. Kingina naman o. :[

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Whenever I talk to you, I just fall in love all over agaaaain.

I feel like I'm floating now. I had a tad convo with bugs ~~bunny~~. HAHA. Nothing, we just teased each other again and still it feels great. Nothing has change, he was makulet still and bolero. And it seems like even at this time I get carried away of how he utter his words.. and I hate it, seriously. But I do miss those times badly. I miss my chum. Even though we had the shortest time to be together, yet the feeling I have for that idiot remains the longest.

Whenever his thoughts pester me, tears I have just rain down knowing that, IT'S DONE. It's clear to me that.. if someone fooled you, you must not make them feel the pain that you've been through because it's not their fault that you've been left behind And maybe that's why I feel guilty these days.. that someone could really get hurt if I broke up instantly just because I made him a rebound to forget what happened in the past.

It's a big mistaaaaake.

I shouldn't done that attitude, to be selfish in the first place and I should have just dumped myself on this chaos alone so no one will get hurt besides me. Losing someone you really love is a big failure on one's life I guess. cause that's the way I feel about it. I thought that I have already conquered his heart, but I was so assuming.. and probably that's reason why I was hurt too much.

There are things that I wanted to discuss with him like.. to say sorry about the last thing we've argue about. I know I made him so disappointed but I dont know if he had forgiven me at this moment. I also find ways how to say "thank you" for making me tougher and built a grown-up me.

Honestly I lost my path when we parted. I dont know, but the courage to be strong for things and everything is totally gone. I mean, all the strengths Ive got is from him and now that his no longer mine, I dont know how to overcome something without him behind me. All is deflected.. I wish everything got fixed that time so I wouldnt lose him. I question Him Above, Lord nagmahal lang naman po ako. Bakit kelangan kong magdusa? :(

I felt really bad to think that all I can do now is to breathe deep.. and just let go of the memories. I just miss everything we had before. Every word he says.. every words he emit when his mad.. every hugs he made.. everything. Man, i miss those.

Thursday, February 18, 2010

SHOOT. Wala na nman kme. >____________<

And I think there's no way of putting it back. After all the good times, parang hindi na kami magkakilala ngayon. Pero sa tingin ko ganun naman talaga. Kaya nga that's one thing why I was not in favor of bestfriends turning lovers. Sayang naman kasi yung friendship nio. I'm sure after break parang strangers na ang trato sa isa't isa.

Now I miss him so much that it hurts I couldn't even tell him that. We parted last February 7, exactly two days before we turn 5 months. Got it? UHH. Kainis tlga. Nung una I thought it was because he found another girl and doesn't love anymore but after a few days I knew that it's because of his parents.. not approving of me. And it was also informed to me that if he wouldn't break up with me he would be deported back to Philippines.

That was the only time I realized that he'd choose not to talk with me rather than not seeing my everyday of his life. And he tries to find another one I know he wants to forget me but hopefully if we see each other in Manila we could talk and have some time.

Honestly, this was the first time I have pleased somebody to not leave me and at that time sobrang natatakot talaga ako na mawala siya kahit nung minsan na niloloko niya lang ako at sinasabing 'break na tayo'. Nakakamiss din yung kahit na ang lamig lamig sa labas ng bahay sa gabi eh naguusap pa din kami. Bakit sa labas? Hekasi baka makita ako ni papa. hahahaha. ^^V

Naalala ko din nung gumawa kami ng tigisang yahoo ID tapos kami lang yung naka-add dun para siguradong kami lang talaga mag-kachat at walang storbo. Idea pa nga niya yun eh. I consider him as my first love kasi sa kanya lang ako naging sobrang honest, i mean talagang walang tinatago.

Remember nung umuwi ako ng Pinas to spend Christmas, he told me that time nung umuwi daw ako eh nakatulong pa daw yun kasi nalaman niya na napamahal na talaga siya saken. Para nga siyang sirang plaka at paulit-ulit niyang sinasabi sakin kung gaano niya ko kamahal. He even scolds me whenever I fail to blog about our love story.

No wonder kung bakit pagtungkol sa kanya yung bina-blog ko eh ang dami-dami kong nasasabi. Siguro dahil kahit na 4 months and 29 days lang ang pinagsamahan namin, alam kong within that, kahit minsan eh naramdaman kong minahal ako ng lubos ng isang tao at siya lang ang gumawa nun sakin. Ewan ko nga kung bakit hanggang ngayon hindi pa rin ako maka-get over sa kanya. I mean, umaasa pa din ako na magiging kame. HAAYS :(

Malapit na pala birthday nung hunghang na yun.. MARCH 24. At hindi ko naman siya mababati dahil di naman kami nag-uusap. Onga pala, one day he PMed me. Told that 'musta ka na??' and asked kung may pag-asa daw ba yung kaklase niyang nangliligaw saken. Naisip ko nga eh, ba't naman niya itatanong if he really doesn't care about that whole thing? Ano? Pag-titripan na naman nila ko? HAHA, mahal pa tlaga ko nang taong yun. Tiis lang ng konti. Kaya pa to. :>

Walang araw na hindi ko siya inisip. Di ko alam kung kumaen na ba siya, how was his day, kung ano na ginagawa niyang kalokohan.. and if he has found someone else BETTER. I swear, napapaiyak ako pagsiya na ang napapagkwentuhan.. at pagnag-tatanong sila kung ano nangyare.

May flashback na naman ako. hahaha~

Sabe niya nuon, malapet na Valentine's.. hayaan mo pag14 bibigyan kita ng isang baldeng rosas. Tapos sabi pa niya, pumunta daw ako sa 3rd year girls at i-distribute sa kanila isa isa. Sabi tuloy nung kaklase ko, saken daw yung balde. Haha mga kalokohan talaga nung gagong yun. Alala ko pa nuon, ang sabi niyang gusto niyang pangalan sa isang dosenang magiging anak namin eh 'Moxii the first' 'the second'.. and so on.. di mo din aakalaing masayahin pala talaga siyang tao.

Hais. Alam ng Dios kung gaano ko pa din un kamahal at kasabay naman nun yung sobrang saket na nararamdaman ko't pagsisisi ngayong nawala siya sakin. BV.

I wish I could hv him back. But, in what ways? I mean, how.. when he's happy and contented right now? Now tell me, is moving on the ONLY way to get the road back to happiness? :c

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Sa dinami-dami ng conflict na dumating samin.. sa lahat-lahat ng pinagaawayan namin sa araw-araw na ginawa ng Diyos eh hindi ko alam kung bakit nasa puso ko parin ang motibo't dahilan para pakinggan parin ang nag-iisang sinisigaw ng puso ko --simple lang, ang mahalin siya.

Ang weirdo nga eh. Nakakainis. Ako yung laging nilalapitan ng mga kaibigan ko pag-may problema sila sa mga ganyang bagay. Sa mga pag-kakataon na hindi sila mahal nung mahal nila. Pero pag-ako na ang nangangailangan eh hindi ko naman magawang sundin yung mga DAPAT.

Nung una, nakakapagod. Parang gusto ko na sumuko. Gusto ko nang iwan siya. Pero may isang matinding bagay dito sa puso ko na nagsasabing wag mong gawin yung bagay na alam mong pag-sisisihan mo at lalo na yung bagay na hindi mo naman kayang gawin. Mayabang ka! Ayan tuloy, umabot kami ng ilang buwan. Pati rin nga siya eh, naguguluhan na sa mga bagay-bagay. Ewan ko dun.. nakikinig na din kasi ng mga slow rap songs. Hahaha. Unti-unti na lumalabas kakornihan nung taong yun. Ang laki-laking tao eh di mo aakalaing ganun siya magmahal. Para bang kung ganu siya kalaki ngayon eh ganun din kalaki yung pagmamahal niya sa taong pinahahalagahan niya.

Naisip ko, swerte din pala yung babaeng magpapatibok talaga sa puso nung timang na yun. Ako, kahit ganito lang kami.. away bati.. at least nasa sakin siya.. sa ngayon. Pag-aari ko siya. At kung ganun, alam kong ako ang nasa posisyon para ipaglaban siya. Minsan, hindi rin maiwasan na unti-unting bumigat yung nararamdaman kong sakit tapos bigla ko na lang iiyakan ang lahat. Pano kasi, kahit na bang alam kong puso ang ginagamit sa pag-mamahal eh hindi ko parin magamit yung utak ko para protektahan yung sarili ko at hindi na ito lalo pang masaktan sa sobra ngang pagmamahal ko sa kanya.