This day, totally sucks! Wanna know why? Imma share a secret~


There's this guy who curse girls, i suppose. But i admit i looove him. Dunno why. Dunno what he did to me. Arr.

Half the words that comes out from his mouth is untrue. His 'sweet talks' make a girl believes that his love is genuine and sincere. He promises but it doesn't mean he'll really do it. He never fails to impress a girl he wants; or must I say, the GIRLSSSS HE WANT.

He's a certified player. He never wants rejection. Of course, who would wish for that right? But the thing is, he'll never stop until he get what he wants. He has a bunch of girls. He plays the most innocent role. He flirts. He lies. You won't even recognize what's real or what's not. All I know is when you start loving him, you'll also start ignoring things that's right.

How can I say that? Its because I love him from the very start. And the feeling is just getting deeper and deeper everyday though I see him hanging around with other flirts. And even when I hate him for that, he quickly washes it away. By the time he hugs me then holds my hand and gives me his 'sweet talks', the feeling of madness isn't there anymore.

I've learned a lot and one of those is that you should never ever play with someone's heart. If you believe in what they call Karma, it really strikes back. That's why I'm too afraid to break someone's heart cos mine might be broken anytime, anywhere.

Love really disorients people. It misleads us to the way that we aren't suppose to go. It's a malignant tumor in the brain that prevents people from inserting their common sense. It also damages the heart of the person when you're hurt and jealous and makes you the foolest person to ignore what your friends say and continue loving him still.

On the other side, love makes you the happiest of the happiest human being in the world. Love even makes you jump with joy. But of course, the perfect-relationship is not what it used to be by now. It does not exist. Why? Cos love is to sacrifice. And sacrifice is to lose someone or something highly valued for other people's sake and happiness.

When you find love, be sure you're robust enough to stand throughout the pain that you could encounter. It might bring you down, result into failure, or if not, you are the luckiest. Cos you know, not all people are blessed to have a love.. a kind of love which is not perfect but probably with contentment and pleasure -for short, happiness.

Let's go back and talk about my love life again. Now, ask me how I hide and stop burning up from jealousy. Hmm.. lemme see, lemme see. Well, patience is really a virtue. I have to fake a smile to keep my poise controlled. I laugh like nothing's wrong going on. I burn those flirts inside me and pretend to be o-kay. Never walk out cos it will only make you the loser and they aren't. Though you want to pull their smooth long hairs, you would never want yourself into public outrage and let them ruin your image and name.

He leaves me whenever he wants, but technically, he comes back right after and here I am, always accepting and forgives him -uh, how foolish, i know i know.

He's numb for not knowing I adore him a lot. That I even sacrificed my happiness and choose to injure my heart just to own him. He smokes. I don't say this because I hate him. It's because what I say is just true-to-life. And I think I just have to deal with it because I love him, I love him at his worst.. and hopes he finally realize that.

Love is strange, but never is unusual. It is never new to us people. Love has just got its own complications that challenges any one of us. The ecstacy of love is just too strong to suppress.


In love, you'll practically learn how to stand your own fears and anxiety, will challenge your strength of emotions, your own resistance, overall, you'll know how to live life to the fullest.